brief updates

- I’ve been relatively quiet for the past few months compared to before because of some shifts in my personal priorities for the moment and my feelings; I’ve been trying to take a sort of break and focus on some personal things and recreation (specifically, my most immediate current goal is to make my way through as much of my old to-read lists as possible, so I’ve been busy with that) instead of work for the community, so I’m going to be a bit disconnected and less closely invested, maybe out of the loop.

- I might create a new askbox on one of the platforms Lecter’s using but any old data from my CC is basically defunct now apart from most recent stuff, and if you want to know something just ask again and I’ll either come up with an answer again or pull out a screenshot if I had one saved.

- Some ups, some downs with my mental health, as can be expected.

- I’m a legal adult now and in uni and my living situation isn’t completely resolved but it’s much better now, so you can worry/feel sorry for me less now, and focus more on other comrades who need more help or are in more desperate/dire straits. (This isn’t justice, of course; I didn’t win, adult supremacy did, even in the other direction, and I’m still bitter about it and still deserve to be.)

- Lecter’s recent askbox answer about shifts in how activism in the community works now, with added complexities and difficulties, resonated with me; I’m having some similar feelings and having to navigate them. The shift from how the community was and how I felt in relation to activism with it in, say, 2020 or 2021 or 2022 is huge. Not everything is easy, though I hope we’ll be alright.

- A friend and comrade on Twitter linked to some of my older blog posts and that got screenshotted to a certain notorious far-right leftist-bashing account that has targeted MAPs on socmed quite a bit. I’m not paying much attention to a lot of stuff related to the community right now and I don’t feel like looking for that tweet and seeing all the woodchipper memes and outrage-claims and blanket dismissals out of hand and mockery and misgendering and whatnot that can be expected from such a conversation. I’m somewhat glad and somewhat upset that I’ve managed to catch their notice in such a way.

- Newgon activity wrt harassment has both escalated and decreased. (Probably unsurprising given that they’ve basically exhausted their repertoire by now and there’s not much more new stuff they could possibly say about us so everything they put out is basically stale by now.) (Jim is still clearly obsessed and as toxic as ever, of course.)

- I’m still upset at myself because I have an enormous backlog of things to do that I certainly won’t get done anytime soon, including a lot of stuff related to the community, many things I started drafting but never got to finishing, projects I wanted to get started or work on but which haven’t come to fruition, etc. basically a very long to-do list. There are multiple drafts for this blog alone that I have little immediate motivation to seriously work on atm, much less motivation for my much longer-term project of looking over and refining or clarifying or qualifying some of my older blog posts which might need some updating to reflect the current scope of my views and increased knowledge base or preferences for argumentation. Sorry about that.

- I’m still writing/posting most of the thoughts that I want to write out on Mastodon, not here.